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喜欢Cobain的第一句话，“艺术，我不会平静地、文雅地抱怨你！在我死之前我会毁掉你的男权主义、受虐狂、恶心、**还有宗教观念。”这话让我几乎落泪，那是一种多么强烈的热情，我也希望我能到死也拥有这样的执着。
第二句，“摇滚是音乐上的自由。是口号，行动，是演奏你喜欢的东西。涅被意味着免于外部世界的痛苦和伤害，这很接近我对摇滚的定义。”摇滚是愤怒的反抗，这些激愤是只有青年才知道是怎么回事，也只有青年才知道这个堕落的时代需要如何去呐喊。鲁迅的怒吼让我震惊的时候，可惜他没听过摇滚，如果那是一个滑稽的场面，我更愿意认为那是一个严肃的庄严的仪式。
还有一句，“有人告诉我，一个艺术家需要持续不断的悲剧(的刺激)，才能完全地表达他的想法。感谢(我所遇到的)悲剧，我的艺术需要它们。”我爱这句话。感谢悲剧，其实那只是生活的一部分，我们受不了生活，抱怨着，生活为什么这么难。其实，我们在悲哀和哭泣中获得了满足，那种满足不是喜剧生活所能带来的，它更沉重和充实。或许它没有你感觉的那么有品位，也不会让你感到潇洒自如。但是，沉重与黑色让我们悲号的同时，我们该意识到，我们是自由的。
这三句话是柯本说的，它蕴涵了无穷的艺术化的哲理，还有那些让我无法读懂的概念式的东西，我爱思考的人生，也爱让我无穷痛苦的过程。我知道高贵的痛苦，永远高于庸俗的幸福，因为后者多数只是一种虚假感觉。柯本领悟到的，我也愿意去寻找，听懂……
来源： http://post.baidu.com/f?kz=106007002
最后的笔迹：
【英文】
To Boddah:
Speaking from the tongue of an experienced simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile complaind. This note should be pretty easy to understand.All the warnings from the Punk Rock 101 Courses over the years, it's my first introduction to the, shall we say ethics involved with independence and the embracement of your community has been proven to be very true. I haven't felt the excitement of listening to, as well as creating music, along with really writing something for too many years now. I feel guilty beyond words about these things,for example when we're backstage and the lights go out and the manic roar of the crowd begins. It doesn't affect me in the way which it did for Freddie Mercury, who seemed to love and relish the love and admiration from the crowd,which is something I totally admire and envy.
The fact is,I can't fool you, any of you. It simply isn't fair to you,or to me. The worst crime can think of would be to pull people off by faking it, pretending as if I'm having one 100% fun.
Sometimes I feeln as though I should have a punch-in time clock before I walk out on-stage. I've tried everything within my power to appreciate it, and I do,God believe me, I do, but it's not enough. I appreciate the fact that I, and we, have affected, and entertained a lot of people. I must be one of the narcisists who only appreciate things when they're alone. I'm too sensitive,I need to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasm.But, what's sad is our child. On our last three tours, I've had a much better appreciation of all the people I've known personally, and as fans of our music. But I still can't get out the frustration, the guilt, and the sympathy I have for everybody. There is good in all of us, and I simply love people too much. So much that it makes me feel too fucking sad. The sad little sensitive unappreciative pisces Jesus man! why don't you just enjoy it? I dont know!
I have a of a wide who sweats ambition and empadny,and a daughter who reminds me to much of what I use to be.full of love and joy, every person she meets because everyone is good and will do her no harm. And that terrifies me to the point to where I can barely function. I cant stand the thought of Frances becoming the miserable self destructive, deathrocker she become.
I have it good, very good,and I'm grateful, but since the age of seven, I've become hateful towards all humans in general. Only because it seems so easy for people to get along and have empathy. Empathy only because I love and feel for people too much I guess.Thank you from the pit of my burning nauseas stomach for your letters and concern during the last years. I'm too much of a neurotic moody person and I don't have the passion anymore,so remember, it's better to burn out, than to fade away.
Peace, love, empathy,
Kurt Cobain
Frances and Courtney,
I'll be at your altar.
Please keep going Courtney
for Frances
for her life which will be so much
happier without me.
I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU!
【翻译】
致巴达:
这是一个饱经沧桑的傻子发出的声音，他其实更愿做个柔弱而孩子气的诉苦人。这张条子应该很容易理解。所有的警告都来自于这些年来的‘朋克摇滚101’，自从我第一次介入那包含着独立性、应当称为道德原则的东西之后，你们团结一致的拥戴已证明是非常真实的。我已经好多年都不能从听音乐，写音乐以及读和写东西中感到激奋了。对于这些事我感到了一种难以形诸文字的负罪感。比如说，但我们来到后台，灯火熄灭，人们狂躁的咆哮响起，这一切对我的影响就远不如对Freddy Mercury（“QUEEN”乐队主唱，1991年因艾滋病辞世。）影响那么大，，他似乎喜欢而且把玩那些从人群中而来的爱与赞美——那正是我赞赏与嫉妒的一切。
事实上我无法欺骗你们，无法欺骗你们中的任何一人。那对你对我都不公平。我能想起的最大罪恶便是欺骗人们，装模作样，做出一副我100%地快乐的样子。
有时候我似乎应当在出场之前有台打卡机。我尽了我全部的力量去喜欢这一切，我的确也喜欢。但这还不够。我喜欢这一事实，即我和我们乐队感染和款待了不少人。我太敏感了。我必须清度麻醉才能重获我在孩提时代曾有过的热情。在我们最后的三次巡演中，我对所结识的所有的人和我们音乐的歌迷都有了更多的欣赏，但我还是无法克服我对每个人都抱有挫折感、负罪感和同情。在我们所有人中都有善意，我就是太爱人们了！爱的太多以至于让我感到真的太他妈忧郁，一个略为忧郁的、敏感的、不领情的、双鱼座的耶稣式的人物！
我有一个女神般的妻子，她为理想和打动人而拼命努力，我还有个女儿，她让我回忆起我的很多过去，她对那些她遇到的人致以全部的爱和快乐的吻，因为每个人都那么好，而且不会对她有任何伤害。这也让我惊恐万分，以至于我只会瞠目结舌。我没法容忍那种想法，就是弗兰西丝将变成象我这样自我毁灭、走向绝路的摇滚歌手。
我快乐的拥有一切，非常快乐。我充满感激。可自打我7岁以来，我总的来说就对人类充满了仇视，仅仅因为人们似乎太过容易地友好相处，而且还会同情，同情！仅仅因为我觉得自己对人们有太多的爱与同情。从我那燃烧而令人欲呕的胃之深处感激你们所有的人，感激你们在过去岁月里所有的来信和关心。我是个太过反常和抑郁的小子！我已经没有任何激情了，所以要记住“与其苟延残喘，不如从容燃烧！”
和平，爱，同情。
Kurt Cobain
Frances 和 Courtney,
我会伴你们到老
Courtney 请继续前行
为了Frances ，为了她的生活
没有我她的生活会快乐许多。
我爱你们！爱你们！！ |
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